I love you..

People said I'm ego..I don't understand why..But I'm just thinking that they've their own mouth to say whatever they want and whatever they wish to say..Why should I bother? If I don't do wrong, why should I yell at them? But still, rubbish things disturbed me a lot..To clarify is easy, but who's going to believe and listen? Rumors, slanders, teases and perceptions would heal for a moment and will come back soon..

If only people out there could really listen to my heart....

A past that really taught me a lot..Being careful in searching for friends, especially boys..And to make a decision upon the special @ the only one..It changed me a lot..When I say I love you..it means that I do love you..I know my rules might kill others feeling..But this is how I love you..

I love you when I prefer not to meet you...

I love you when I prefer not to contact you always...(like others do; sms, facebook-ing, myspace-ing, friendster-ing, chatting)

I love you when I prefer angry at you...

I love you when I prefer not to be jealous towards your girl/ boy friends...

I love you when I prefer to stay far away from you...

I love you when I prefer be the one to hear...

I love you when I prefer be the one to appreciate...

I love you when I prefer to be friends...(until you're fully prepared)

I love you when I prefer to test you...

I love you when I prefer to say you're the worst...

I love you when I prefer reminding you (Take care..Smile always..Be strong..)

I love you when I prefer simple things from you...(your story about your interests; your nagging)

I love you when I prefer not to get anything from you...

I love you when I prefer not to get attention from you...

I love you when I prefer to pray All the Best for you...

I love you when I prefer to let you do whatever you want...(to live your life to the fullest as Muslim)


Lastly....


I love you when I prefer to let you go...

Because I trust you..
I know you..
You're strong..
I believe you're not alone..

I may lose you..
But He makes me feel so grateful..
Why?
Because of a chance of knowing you..
Until I taste the sweetness..
Until I realize my mission in this world..
Until I know myself better..
Until I know You...
Who had design best for me..
Thank you, Allah...

I may lose you..
I know nobody is like you..
If I take one step forward..
I can say, past is past..,
according to time..
I know my heart never lie to me..

So I decide, to stay..
Not hoping...,
rather than..
Appreciating those beautiful moments..

~ Alhamdulillah ~